Creative Urge

Have experienced the creative urge when I was a kid. I was very active in doing handcrafts, creating contests among friends, distributing handmade gifts. Boy, that did gave me high. It was such joy to be on the instructing end and to see things go just the way as I would want it.

As I grew, crafts took a back seat or I would call committed suicide in the back burner!! I always love to recollect all the memories, I would be begging for little money from my mom to but cardboards, velvet clothes, thermal sheets, fevicol, beads and what not..I would sneak into the bedroom and would steal few rupees also. Come summer, I would be busy with my little creative world..

All that fun..jazz is gone now..passion and I never knew changes as we grow up.

During college days I was so into reading books..though it doesn't fall under the same category as creative urge. But definitely reading helped me in so many ways..I will be eternally thankful towards my mind for cultivating the habit of reading..Yeah the creative urge of writing is mainly because I read..

I used to write journal, write essay on various topics and wrote lots of short stories for my cousin to read..that was lot of fun..

As my crafts committed suicide, my writing thankfully thought of doing the same..but it did kind of got lost amidst the busy schedule of work, stress and other nonsense.

Off late, the urge to write is resurfacing and hell yeah I am not just happy but kind of relieved too about the same!!

To write what is the question?

Desire!!

All of a sudden I have got this overwhelming desire to be with my pals...something not very unusual..we all would love to spend time with our friends..call up, make plans and if the person is free we will hang out...But, surprisingly what I feel right now is nothing of that sort..as a compulsion my mind is urging me to seek my friend's company or dare I say seek refuge!!

There is no particular fun as far as I have observed in having so much of pride...wish If only I had known how to loosen up things it would have been lot more fun. As I always say, Ignorance is such a bliss.... knowledge does come with a price..monetarily as well as emotionally..Outrageous I'd say!

Hard..very hard meeting like minded people and just being normal is even more harder. I hate to judge people and hate being judged...and the very thought of "hey mad's am judging you" signal is creepy..how on earth one should be with someone who's constantly judging?

I wish I didn't had to ponder over these things and write all this after a long hibernation...even polar bears hibernate only for six months....hey bears look who won the contest !!!

So many things to conquer in the world and yet we constantly battle to conquer our mind which is way way ahead of us!!

Well, God you do have weird sense of humor !!!

Good Listener or a good conversationalist

For now, am going to pretend that I am a regular blogger.

I have often wondered if I am a good listener or a good conversationalist and I know who I am

even before the question is finished. I have had my days when I had wished I was more vocal about my feelings.

For me listening comes natural..I definitely feel that I have the knack of getting down to the understanding level of whoever is sharing their stories, sorrows, happiness or whatever that may be. I can be more compassionate..and I'd call myself a people's person.

Hey, for no reason I am called a secret locker or secret sponge by my friends. One of my closest pal had suggested that I should have take up psychology. She always told me I would have made a fine psychiatrist..

What I feel or how am able to listen with such keen interest is the trust the person has one me.I definitely feel if there is anything that you can give to someone in the world which is so precious is the TIME.

I definitely have no intention to degrade or insult that for anything in the world.

I love my friends for trusting me with their whatever that is.

And yeah, what would irritate me sometimes is that..after they are done with all sharing, some people would say don't tell anybody about it....Ewwwww...what a nasty thing to say ...All my reply would be...buddy if you trust me..please share or take a pass on it...I definitely don't want anyone to question my loyalty. Hey above all am a true CAPRICORN...Loyalty is what I am best at!!

And now, discussing about why am I writing all this...did I need someone to listen to my unsaid worries? who knows..there are times when I confuse myself...I don't figure sometimes what the fuss is all about...It's like a huge battle between my mind and heart...I feel like there are two people fighting...one with pride..one with feelings...CRAP..

I am not good in letting people know how I feel, I hide my emotions that too weakest of them all very well..is it the question of acceptance or just don't want to burden others with my problems is beyond my understanding...

However...writing all this on this blog makes me think otherwise..do I really be looking for someone to share my feelings or am I kidding myself ???

my schooling- Very First Post by my sister Geethi

I am geethi from 9 th iam here to say about my school days, first and foremost I will start with my teachers and I almost love all my teachers except Mrs. Joice . She is one among the maths teachers. ok enough of saying about my teachers, now i 'll start with my friends. my friends are the most precious gift from god. In 2007 & 08 I had two of my best friends namely Niki and Mona. They were so totaly good and helpful. Because of that stupid miss joice we were separated into 2 divisions. so we lost all our happiness, in the sense our last year farewell party, children's day etc. next year 2009 was like, i thought it will be boaring but it was okkkkkkkk, i was sitting alone for 2 to 3 days, there came a new pretty girl , tirsha samuel and she became my best friend. there is a brillia nt girl in our class named nrithiya ,a guitarist named leah, and a singer named cherry. i was introduced by tirsha to this group as geedi, geets and dewlly.there are like so awesome and sweet to me. at first i thought so really discused to be in that group but after some days i felt fineeeeeeeee and comfortable with them. and then they all became really close to meeeee, we all used to have lots of fun and enjoy our school days by doing some naughty things like buncking, talking funny things about teachers , going to canteen during P.T period etc... we guys never used fight with each other but i am not sure WE MAY... during bio or phy period we used to pass letters by writing HEY DUH!!!! WAT'S UP and so.......on. I had already said that we guys never used to fight but atlast it happened, a fight between leah and nrithu , we three does'n know what had happened within them, but they were so crazyly fighting by using loads of bad and dum woards, we guys were trying to console them but then....... Days passed, but still they did'nt talk with each other, i meen still today. WILL BE CONTINUED!!....... I WISH THEY WILL BECOME TOGETHER AGAIN. BYYYEEEEEEEEE.......!

Day Out with Babies

Yeah....gonna have loads of fun today with my sisters....After some two or three months we all hitting Sathyam Cinemas today to catch a show of Kanden Kadhalai....Honestly I am no big fan of remake movies, I will always end up criticizing more. I somehow feel original versions are best. Oh yeah by the way Kanden Kadhalai is remake version of Jab We Met. I loved the plot,bubbliness and liveliness of kareena, though I am no big fan of her. Hmmm am sure I will end up comparing Kareena and Tamannah. Besides I like Tamannah's lip movements.

Ha, me and my sisters Geethi, Sonu & Ammu are gonna have very very very light breakfast today. We want space to hog the famous Sathyam Cinemas POPCORN. I donno about others but me and my sisters would love to go to Sathyam just for popcorn's, don't care however bad the movie might be!!! It's not that we don't get good popcorn's elsewhere, but the sheer combination of butter and popcorn is just worth spending. And we always make sure to ask for extra butter.
We always make a pact of not touching others popcorn bucket.
Hopefully the pact will be intact !!!!!!!!! Got to go now to get ready..
see ya blog..

Wishlist

Ahem...bet it would be any one's favorite thing to do, write up their wish lists....am no different!!
Here I go...Few things I've always wanted to do and wanting to do..yeah, damn right I will keep editing as in the list grows or the wish gets fulfilled....
bullets or numbers?????? hmmmm lets see

• Visit Newzealand and do bungee jumping and all adventurous activities it has to offer


• Do certification course on photography and become a good photographer if not famous


• Want to learn to paint better and how to draw a portrait


• Go on trekking alone


• Go on a long trip with my buddy Fathima, just the two of us or with our respective husbands

PS - Me and faths already have talked about what to do on the trip!

• Take my family to overseas trip, I so wish that all my aunts and cousins should also be there


• Visit Athirampally falls in Kerala.


• Kulu Manali - Yeah good place for a Honeymoon I guess


• Involve myself in more of social servicing activities.. Each One Teach One is the Idea I came up with when I was studying 10th std, shall talk about more on that.


• Go on a trip with my mega stars gang with their hubbies as it gives an opportunity to get to know better


• Talk with more adages.

to be continued.......

Nothing Much

Here I am , after a brief hiatus to pen down my random thoughts.....I don't have any idea of writing a particular topic or facts as I write on...I am just gonna go with the flow....huh..What a relief of not having to think about a title and mull over the thoughts on...it's great this way...don't have to restrict myself on writing about one particular title at one time..What a great joy it is to actually write the same thing over and over in many sentences!! oh boy!! clear indication that am out of words or thoughts....hahaha

Middle of work, taking a break to be with my blog for sometime...feels good...It's a rendezvous me with myself....Actually speaking I didn't had the guts to get into my blog and feel disgusted over myself for not being able to keep up my words on writing often...It reminds me of how disoriented I can be and I hate being that way..

Know what, this blog is not helping me either nor making me feel any better....it's better I finish this off and move onto next blog and find some inspiration to write the next one....

So long,