Goodbye, 2008

I've been dying to say Goodbye to you 2008. The day has finally come to say goodbye to you, for you have taught me so many things and you have made me lose so many things this year.

There isn't a single day in this year where I could relate myself to be the happiest on the earth. Not necessary that I should feel happier all the time, but atleast!!!

Anyways, I have had thoughts for regretting you, 2008 for my lifetime, but I have decided to let go of you. I am just gonna carry few wonderful moments and forget all the dreadful days I have had in this year. Nevertheless it reallt wouldn't be fair on my part not to say "Thank You" because you have taught the beautiful essence of life and the inevitable failure too. 

You have made me rethink, rediscover myself. You have taken me to trips which I never thought would go through. You have given me pain which I never thought I would bare, you have taught me failure, which I never thoght I would encounter. 

Few bright moments:

Few dark moments:

Sometimes, somethings are better left unsaid!

Goodbye, 2008

Mr. Perfect

Me and one of my friends were there attending a training session, boring one. So we decided to do something useful and started jotting down on how or what are the qualities there should be in a guy. Me and my friend kinda shared great wavelength and invariably we had same thoghts too . So we went adding and building the list. To add, only few points I remember now.. see priorities changes as we grow.. hmm so we agreed on common wills like, not many points on appearances as we focused on the charateristics more. like he should be tall, he should be moderate rich, he should be tolerant and patient, he should not argue...but should argue at times when we feel like, basically he should be reacting exactly what we want and on his own too sometimes..many were unrealistic ideas..but who cares it was a nice pass....

And after some time, one of the fellow trainee he just happen to notice us and took the book from our hand and he read that. A very shocked reaction he had in his face and all he could manage to say was............idhella gunangallum venumna neenga 5  pera kalyanam pannikanum paravaillaya???????????????

Means.. If you want all the writtten characteristics then you gals should be marrying five men!!!!!

Mom

Oh Mom,

When I needed all the warms;

you took me into your arms

You lent me your lap;

to take a little nap

You pull me to your chest;

when I need little rest

You nourish me within your wings;

and put up with all my moodswings

All I did was scolding;

all that you did was loving

I dared not look into your eyes;

when I did little mischiefs

When I was in bed recovering;

you also took all the suffering

Whenever I used to cry in pain;

your heart bleeded with affection

When I was inside you I kicked you hard;

now I am young and you keep me on guard

All I do is dream for me;

and you give your life for me

Selfish defines me;

Selfless defines you

I felt happy because I took part in a drama;

therefore you felt happier too and that's no drama

Jolly time, in a waterfall I slipped;

In that fear it's your heartbeat that slipped

I go here, I go there, I go eveywhere;

And for me you are here, here and here

I boast what I earn spending only for myself;

and you boast amongst your friends showing all that by yourself

All I did was scolding;

all that you do is loving

Little did I know you have a heart of your own?

little did I know that you have a dream to care on?

Later I came to know that your dreams are all for my happiness;

and at that instance I made a decision to give you all the happiness

Oh Mom,

Sorry if I ever were insensitive;

now on my love for you will be intensive

God created earth, god created water;

God needed love, therefore he created every mother

I wanted reason for my birth;

I saw my mom and am ready for my death.

To mom, with love

madhuma.

Why, What's the point???

Terrorists attack mumbai - 26.11.2008 and never agian elsewhere

Have been glued to my television for the past two days and many many thoughts run into my mind varying from questions, anxiety, hatred, my childhood remembrance with  situation alike to this of the war which broke out between Hindus and Muslims in the year 1993. Much as I hate mentioning any kind of religions in my blog, but I've been left no choice if I have to mention the incident.

I was trying to see the situation from the media perspective, from the politician perspective, from the common man perspective, from the other nations perspective or even was wondering what would be going through in the gun men's mind. Though I have no expertise thinking in any of the above said, I was trying to reason out as why men invented powerful weapons, explosives and all all related stuffs which could bring on danger to own human lives. 

I couldn't bring myself to imagine the trauma of people who were there bravely all through the rough ordeal. And at this moment, hearing many foreign nationals say that were informed about the proceedings through telephone by the hotel staffs and as I read on the article in the paper about the hotel staffs guiding their guests towards the safety point I just cannot but marvel and salute the hotel staffs to really perform their duties even at the point which is so close to DEATH.

 

As the two points were cleared, the media houses focused on unfolding or I'd rather comment finding the fault and pointing towards the politicians. I couldn't help but wonder whatever happens here in our country politicians at no point are never gonna be spared. Be it praising less and accusing more.. politicians will remain in the center of the media and in critics for years to come. 

I was even wondering if all this would be forgotten and the aftermaths of this will be shown in the media or not as I can relate to one Noida incident, which captured the media attention almost an year ago or two was forgotten in a weeks time. And no body including me bothered to know what happened to the men who were involved in the barbaric act.

Even questioned myself and few people around me if they have ever known of a terrorism which has gained victory in it's mission? But I would like to also quote if their short mission is to create an havoc and bring horror, then they sure have attained what they wanted. Have seen many SM S's doing rounds in the TV telecasting the mixed the emotions of the people all around the country but I can certainly not quite guess the intensity nor the ratio of the country's population reacting to the incident.

Media covering 24 hrs and work towards gaining it's publicity and larger audiences, politicians visiting and marking their presence with or without any motive, headlines breaking now and then commenting on the braveness of the army men which I gather their performance of duty, few film fraternities gathering in media houses and giving coverage with their messages with or without publicity motive. 

I was amazed at the reaction on the news of few Jewish people at Nariman's point by their nationalists. How quick were they to respond and how quick they offered their condolences in more and more dignified manner. I was shocked to hear that the baby is turning 2 on No29, and today the toddler has lost his parents.

As I write this, the situation at the Taj hotel is still not clear. There are speculation that there might be one or two terrorists. My mind runs wild imagining the worst. However I hope not that the gunmen have their way out without answering for the horror they brought to the nation.

And I sincerely hope that our nation has enough equipments and intelligence to fight those mean fellows. I was going through the headline as one of the country offered India help in dealing the situation but read our nation has rejected any help. I would say when the much experienced nation offers help and it really won't cause our ego any cost to accept in these kind of tense situations. Why not seek help in this issue while we have been seeking help on more other matter?

I salute our officers and pray that their souls may rest in peace as they have lived a brave life risking theirs to ensure we all breathe. 

 

 I can't help but believe that terrorism has no meaning and can never win but why it's outrageous activities are still taking place?????? There's no point indeed!!!!

I rest here by praying GOD ALMIGHTY to instill some humanity in those who are lacking it.

And I sincerely hope after many years down the line whoever gets to read this find it as a history of terrorism which should have ceased to exist and not known at that period. 

Many a questions on my mind!!!!!!!!!!!??????????!!!!!!!!!!

Faith

Hope

Live and let live.

My state of mind

Confusion : My state of mind at the moment. While writing this I wonder if my state of mind right now is only for the present or have I been confused all along the journey called life. Writing this as I am confused, would also like to wonder if I am confused about my job, about my future, about the way I am presenting myself, about my health, about my marriage talk or is it confused about just everything. Whatsoever I would always work towards changing this state of my mind.

Vaaranam Aayiram

Today, I had a chance to watch this much-hyped, much awaited feature film Vaaranam Aayiram. 

A beautiful journey of a young man, portrayed beautifully, I wish people could appreciate nice work rather than commenting on the story line and any negativities. The love life has been picturized so nicely, anyone would love to fall in love seeing that. If people are already in love then it'll be a definite trip of rememberance. A love, respect, admiration, strength and love of a young man towards his father is shown so brilliantly and as far as I remember I don't recollect any other movie of this category. 

Too many talks about the movie, why when who and all those nonsense facts. I got my movie review infront of me..My mother and my fren were crying while coming out of the theatre.

Now that's called impact of a movie, if Gautham was expecting these kind of reactions, well then here he gets...not just those two...infact many in the theatre left with tears rolling down thier cheeks...Well if I cried ?....my pride is too strong to let my emotion exhibit :-)

Phantom Calls

Phantom Calls, have heard about it, but until quite recent I never had experienced it. My ring tone was the famous "Cuppy Cake Song" and it's gotten to the point where I almost hear it all the time. It's not that I relate it to a mental state, yet it's quite annoying to know why I hear that. I almost heard the song last week and my mobile was in service center. When I had shared this Phantom calls with my friends, boy what joy I got in not knowing I wasn't the only one to experience it. As in exams when you fail and your friend fails too you actually get a joy out of it as you have a company.

I re-quote again..human mind is weird indeed!!!!

My Drive

Whoa......man, I now know why men go crazy for the wheels... My weekend treat to myself....I went on a long drive on our very own East Coast Road, believe it folks, I touched 100 and was crazy to do so. My only disappointment was there was no drizzling effect.. I wish so much that it  rained....Though my first car lesson was on ECR, this time I was on my own, I shut my fren to not to give me any instrutions.. as I always fumble only if I get running commentry. Now I understand the joke they make on women commenting while the men drives. Way to go Maddy!!!!

By the way I forgot to mention, I got my license recenlty!! hehe

Autumn Leaves

Oh God, I can't begin to explain what I feel seeing these autumn leaves. It gives me such a soothing and calming effect. It brings out the soft, untold and feel good mood. As they say "A thing of beauty is joy forever" it goes true for this Autumn Leaves. A road which is a bed of autumn leaves, with both chilling and warmth sense is definitely one of my picks of the best photographs. Awaiting to encounter it for real!!!!! 

"Plight"

God's own country, the land of beauty and bad omen!!!

• A man comes and warns everyone at the household that they are going to attack the place, all people will go and hide in the fortunate or unfortunate dig holes inside the house. Those who act quick to hide will be saved the rest will find their places in heaven only to leave those who are alive-living dead.
• A group of men will come and hunt for youngsters, pull them out and kill them in front of their own family.
• Children and Old children are preparing just in case:

         and so on....so many horrifying, callous, cold-hearted acts happened, happening and God should put an end to it's happening any further. Yes, the above mentioned were incidents from people who lived to tell near my household. Until then I didn't the understand the depth of the grieve, and my heart cries out for people who are going through this God's construction-destruction theory in most unfortunate way and I wish I could do anything to make thier lives better and the only way I now Know is, TO PRAY.

I bow down my head for those who join me to pray for the betterment of our fellow men's lives.

Gratitude

I have always forced myself to think that I hated my job. Out of this 5+ years of work, there were many ups and downs of my career. Working in nights I've always thought that it wasn't much great. Whom do I owe my success or whom do I blame for my failure? It has to be ME..I have always believed in school of thought that no one can be responsible for any body's action. 

I questioned often what great did I do, was I successful in what I was doing? Well I was to some extent, I had the fire in me to be good in what I do, be innovative in what I do, but by all that only I got better, my confidence level was elevated..what good it do to others?

And to end my confusion, there came my many wonderful colleagues who've always been loyal in their words and feelings. They say they owe their success to me, without fail they call at every point of their career growth to thank me...

Isn't it me who should be thankful to them to make me successful in what I did ?

Gratitude often is so mutual !

Why??

A 6 year old girl was happy going to school and then to tuition in the evening, as that was her routine. One fine day she goes to tuition and then she goes missing.2 days and still missing and she gets back home after the complaint and search and all that. She comes back only her little finger is cut-off. She along with few more kids undergoes the kidnap trauma where they were molested and punished and what not.
Fine, all that happens in movies, story books and with one of my friends too. Big deal After all we live in such good world, aren’t we?I have no more words!!!
PS: The tuition teacher was one involved in child racketing

Completely Smitten

I am completely smitten by APPU, my less than two year old kid brother (my cousin’s son). He’s a bundle of joy and such energy; boy I wish I had his energy. At this age he gives out such positive vibes and it’s really amazing..

My friends and relatives call me “daddu” now, thanks to him for he couldn’t mouth my name as madhu. He hates sleeping, eating and getting pampered, no wonder why he doesn’t like me pampering is the way I squeeze him and hold him so tight ;-) and I guess he wants to be treated like he is one big guy

What’s really special about him is his feeling of togetherness; he makes sure everybody takes part in whatever he does, if he is enjoying then he makes sure everybody does. If he has something to eat he shares it with all around him. Often people say we learn so many things from kids, now I see why.

His Fav Song - Taxi Taxi from Sakkarakatti

His Fav Play Item - Laptop, DVD player, Mobile (esp mine, he loved it so much to throw it in a bucket of water)

His Fav Hero - Ajith, Rajini(to an extent that he'd eye only Ajit's daughter and not Surya's)

His Fav Actress- Namitha (What else the kid would do, she's all over in all magazines)

His Fav Dish - Fish Finger(it's funny the way he says fish..fshh fshhh)

His Fav word - Ey( he defnitely beats Vijayakanth to it)  

Yes!! kids of 2008 they have their own list!!

And I Wish all my sisters and brothers a very "HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY"

Intuition

I tried changing the appearance of this page...but back in mind I always knew I will not change the template..but what the heck I still tried...but as usual my intuition won over me...I have tried many times fighting with my intuition..yet wondered how can I fight with something which is part of my existence, I might as well learn to let my intuition lead!

What next

Kids!!! Kids of this generation are losing their patience(am I from other generation??) with these technology taking over on everything ... or it's so far my understanding..I simply get amazed at my sister's boredom..back then when I was her age(She's just 10..I had lots of enthusiasm, spirit, my creativity was at it's best: I shall discuss about my child age some fine day).

Though she has many gadgets, many funskool games, many sisters and a kid brother to play..yet she gets bored in no time.. The same I feel these days..we really can't relate to something for long unless it has something which really intrigues us..Or so I feel!

Violence

How do I start...There was a riot in chennai's law college on Nov 12, day scholars and hostellites near to killing one another for known or unknown reason...Some say it was due to missing out of some national leader's name in some posters!!! Well it's good reason for one to die, isn't it? 

Policemen watching just 3 feet away from the scene and yet didn't stop them. nor they made any move.. I conclude we don't need any police stations in that case then..let's all fight and kill..

Lets forget policemen, what about our dear students.. how are they going to enforce law and order..what justice they can probably provide to people??? Forget the reasons too...HUMANITY, HUMANACT~ well seems like they have not come accross any of those words..how can one human possibly beat another whatever the reason may be..it's beyond my imagination.. By seeing the rely on TV..I was so angry and I felt to intervene and slap them to stop inhumane act..Or was I also inhumane for that second to have thought of slapping them?? human mind is WEIRD!!!!!!!!

It's natural

God has blessed me with many good people to shower love and affection on me. I can nothing but feel grateful to God for his kindness. I've asked myself thousand times if I am reciprocating the right way..Undeniable truth of anyone's life is "People come and People Go"...you really can't hold on everyone you meet..yet we make choices.. choices to be with certain people..choices to leave certain people.. We make choice to boost our ego.. we chose not to be with people who we think might hurt us.....for all we know they might hurt our ego...Still we move on.. If any one marks their presence in our mind in some weird way..no matter if we chose to be in touch with them or not.. their thoughts would haunt your memory for lifetime for sure..It really doesn't have to be real people for instance...A character played by some one in a movie, a character in a book that you have read...It really is natural to be egoistic sometimes..'cos it really does good to your EGO...

Long Due

By God, I have been wanting to start writing blog for as long as I have known blogging. Why do I want to write...well there are lot many reasons for instance it'll give my grandchildren easy access to my life ..yeah very true..I just hope I write more and more posts in the upcoming years and don't get bored of it. Well there has to be start for anything..here I start today ....most important of all I just want to write as a Thanks or as an appreciation to my friends and family to let them know how important are they to me. Well I am not gonna start off thanking anyone right now..It feels great to write about our feelings, thoughts, opinions, criticisms, gratefullness all emotions without any apprehension or hurting anyone. Not fearing losing anything...I just wish myself good luck with my blog!!!!!

Play with your pics

PLAY WITH YOUR PICS  

photofunia.com Check it out ....it's cool..see I've become famous..hey I was just looking through one of my fren Fathy's orkut album and couldn't stop admiring the way she has morphed her pics.. how will I resist asking her the website.. next thing I know is I was all editing my pics to beat her images..It's really a thrilling experience to just to see your pics on the magazines, hoardings, posters, paintings...who doesn't want to become Famous??